Thursday, December 17, 2015

The Victim

I am no longer happy to play the victim.
At best, helpless victims of discrimination; at worst, adherents of a twisted ideology bent on death and destruction -
this is how we Muslims are viewed today
especially in societies where we are in the minority.

I am no longer happy to play the victim.
For we have for too long been on the defensive,
happy at most to condemn acts of terror
in reaction to those who carry them out in the name of our religion.
And yes, condemn we must, but is that enough?

I am no longer happy to play the victim,
to be the person who says
“Terrorists do not represent me”
but go no further,
happy to wait while society dishes out either
abuse or sympathy.

I am no longer happy to play the victim,
I am no longer satisfied with mere sympathy;
because sympathy runs out eventually,
and my religion has never taught me to be dependent
on others' pity.

I am no longer happy to play the victim,
and so
we must go on the offensive, armed with Islam
and to do so with a proper understanding
of what being “armed with Islam” means in today’s context:
To engage society NOT with
guns blazing,
bombs exploding, or
cries for the heads of "the infidels";
But with acts of reforming society with deeds of civic responsibility – Islamic fundamentals like
feeding the poor,
caring for the elderly,
and inviting to spiritual enlightenment;

In short, our presence in any society should be a blessing –
to whatever society that is.

I am no longer happy to play the victim,
and I commend my British Muslim brothers and sisters
who share this thought
and have actually done something about it:

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

I am Independent

"I am independent"
It is the lie we are taught to believe in
as we travel through life;
and as we start 
moving out of our childhood bedroom,
becoming more educated,
and making more money,
it is a lie
we start to believe in.

"I am independent",
because I pay my own bills,
I make my own decisions,
I am my own man.

But what a delusion it is
it is not food that gives us nourishment, 
it is not an education that gives us knowledge, 
it is not friends or family that make us feel loved, 
but it is God who does..
even if He does it via 
the food, education, or friends and family 
that He grants us.

"I am independent";
the falseness of this delusion 
lies naked for all to see
at those points in our lives when
we are starving,
or unloved;

and the fragility of the human
body, mind, and heart
is laid bare.

You are not independent.
Where does your dependence lie?

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Of Peace and OSCEs

Peace, funnily enough, 
can come in the knowledge
that you have a test coming up.

when there is a test coming up,
it takes first priority;
everything else comes second,
allowing you to focus your time and energy 
on that one thing - the test.

Perhaps this is one way
we can say
that Islam brings peace:
not necessarily because
there is with it
an absence of conflict;

but because with it
one finds peace in oneself - 
the peace of knowing 
what the real test is,
and freeing you 
to focus your time and energy on it.


(Please make du'a for me...!!)

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Papa's Doa

My memory is a bit fuzzy on this,
for it is after all a childhood memory..

I remember 
after solat maghrib 
Papa letting me sit on his lap
as he makes doa.

He says it out loud deliberately
(I suspect)
so I could hear him say:
"Ya Allah, 
make my children good people,
grant them success 
in this world and the next"

Sometimes we feel that our success
comes from 
our own intelligence,
our own effort,
or just being at the right place
at the right time.

Forgetting that all help comes from Allah
and that help came via
the help of friends,
a 'lucky break',
or the sincere doa of a father.

Thanks pa :)

Monday, November 30, 2015

What Sort of Budak Surau?

But what sort of budak surau?
One who doesn't only frequent the masjid
but is also able to
argue his stand in an intellectual debate,
jog a few miles without a problem,
and lead society with the principles of Islam.

For, after all, 
Islam itself is holistic, perfect, and synergistic.

Should we not, then, question the state of our tarbiyyah
if our tarbiyyah is not consistently churning out
the main ingredient of a strong ummah: 

the well-rounded individual?

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Shall We Let Them Win?

Manifestation of khalifah?

Shall we let them win?

who are enemies to
non-Muslims and 
Muslims alike.

Enemies to non-Muslims
as they in the name of Islam
behead, bomb, and gun down
innocent souls.

Enemies to Muslims
as they behead, bomb, and gun down
innocent souls
in the name of Islam.

Shall we let them win?

The trick they play is the
exploitation of ignorance,
to sow fear and hatred,
for the purpose of causing division;
in a misguided jihad for the khilafah.

we are letting them win
as governments  "declare war" on them
when that is the very thing they want:
a reinforcement of their narrative
that "the West" is at war with Islam,
and so Muslims must kill the Westerners.

We are letting them win
as we discriminate against Muslims even more,
making them even more alienated in European society.

We are letting them win
as we keep Syrian refugees out,
leaving them vulnerable to the allure of violence.

In so doing,
we are serving them new recruits on a silver platter;
we are letting them win.

Shall we let them win?

We shall not;
but only if ALL of us
Muslim or non-Muslim,
reject the idea they are selling:
the idea that
Islam is a religion of violence,
eternally at war with the West.

To the non-Muslims of Europe,
I advice you to have sabr
and hold on to your principles of
justice, freedom and tolerance.

To the Muslims of Europe,
I advice you to hold on to the Islamic principles of
justice, freedom and tolerance
and have sabr.

Do not let them win.

Wednesday, November 4, 2015


Perhaps we don't find peace in our solat
not because we have forgotten "how"
but because we have forgotten "why".

The irony being 
that the answer to the question "why solat?" 
is, actually,

You see,
it is the nature of the dunya 
to make us fixated on 
the "how"s of life:
how to get a girlfriend,
how to raise our kids,
how to graduate from uni;
so much so that
we start defining ourselves 
by those "how"s: 
"I'm a lover,
a mother, 
a student."

Against this background,
the solat is, actually,
a redefinition of self
prescribed 5 times a day;
because, you see,
it is the nature of the solat
to make us remember 
the "why" of life:
"I'm an abid of Allah."

But it can only be so
if we stop misperceiving it as
as a mere ritual,
and stop the "how"s of life
from intruding into it.

Perhaps then
we shall find peace in our solat.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

On niat:


it can make
the smallest of acts
big in the sight of Allah,
the biggest of acts
small in the sight of Allah.

Even something as big
as a hijrah.


Sunday, October 11, 2015


As we change through Life
from one moment to the next,

every one of those moments is a meeting
between the past you
and the future you

at a time called Now
and a place called You.

how will you change today?

Sunday, October 4, 2015

The Iman System

The body's defence is the immune system;
the heart's defence is the iman system.

Just as the immune system has to be maintained by
eating well,
stopping smoking, and
so the iman system has to be maintained by
doing ibadah well,
avoiding sins, and
doing da'wah.


Sunday, August 23, 2015

Team Islam


We shall
support Islam
like we support a football team:
We shall
bully into submission
people who have views we don't agree with;
to show you just how powerful we are.
We shall
yell bigoted slurs
in public places and social networks;
to show you just how un'apologetic' we are.
We shall
not shy away
from slander and labeling others;
to show you just how righteous we are.

said a wise friend of mine (paraphrased):
"If you can't find answers to the questions against your faith,
then you should question what sort of faith you have"

in Islam, iman (faith)
doesn't just embrace a person's heart,
it also engages the person's intellect.

In other words,
we do not support Islam
like we support a football team;
blind, emotional support
merely because we were born into the religion.

We cannot support Islam
like we support a football team;
because if we do we will be far from
being warriors of Islam,
and closer to being hooligans.

And hooliganism is a symptom
of a lack of self-esteem;
itself a manifestation
of a lack of knowledge;
brought about
by a lack of asking questions.

Your questions will not
'ruin' Islam somehow;
this God-given Deen is complete enough
to always have an answer.

Have faith in that.

Monday, August 3, 2015

Muhasabah Rusholme


It's easy to walk down the street
and complain.

Complain about
the litter on the ground,
the inconsiderate drivers,
the unsmiling faces of passers-by.

It's society's fault,
all of this. Always.

It's easy to complain;
difficult to actually DO SOMETHING.
Like pick up that litter,
or drive properly
or smile.

But how can you complain about the problem
when you are not part of the solution?

Monday, July 27, 2015

A Note on Racism

The Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary's definition for the word 'Racism' is:
"Prejudice, discrimination, or antagonism directed against someone of a different race
based on the belief that one’s own race is superior."

The correlation of this 'modern' definition with the saying of a man in a desert 1400 years ago is amazing:
that man, the Prophet (peace be upon him) said that there are 4 characteristics of jahiliyyah (ignorance) which will stay with the Muslims.

The first two he listed are:
1. Boasting of ancestral nobility
2. Finding fault in other's ancestors

After reading this hadith it is less of a surprise to me
how supposed adherents of a religion which is fundamentally anti-racist,
can themselves act so racist
(to both non-Muslims and fellow Muslims)
when Islam came to abolish racism 1400 years ago!

The Prophet's prediction (as always) has come true;
racism is well and alive in today's ummah.
I am quite sure that the Prophet didn't just mention the above as a mere 'fun fact',
because a central part of the beautiful Deen he taught
is that of continuous struggle against jahiliyyah.
He, peace upon him, was warning us of the evil of racism.
And to STRUGGLE against it.


Wednesday, March 11, 2015


These days we are happier
to smile at a camera
than to each other


Sunday, February 15, 2015

Xgi Masjid

"Beriman kepada qadha' dan qadar":
rukun iman ke-6.

Kenapa aku x gi masjid?
Dan kalau pergi pon,
(Dapat tangkap rakaat terakhir je?)

Sebab ak busy study la bro..
Study tu penting jugak..amanah kot..!
Sebab ak penat la bro..
Klau x cukup tido..x sihat la..!
Sebab ak nak jumpa kawan la bro..
Hubungan baik dgn kawan2 penting..baru boleh dakwah..!

Sedangkan kita percaya
bahawa results exam,
dan persahabatan
semuanya ketetapan Allah?

Na'udzubillah min zalik

Mungkin aku xpegi masjid
atau lambat gi masjid..

Na'udzubillah min zalik 

..sebab ada sekelumit perasaan dlm hati
xpercaya rukun iman ke-6.

Na'udzubillah min zalik

(Maaf klau berat.
First and foremost,
peringatan kepada diri sendiri)


Wednesday, January 21, 2015


I've got a feeling that
the act of complaining
is very much
human nature.

After all,
do we not do that from an early age
to our parents?
"Mama..Adik has a better toy than me..!" [said with eyes tearing up]

To everybody on Facebook via our status updates?
"I love her so much..why can't she love me back..??" [typed with eyes tearing up]

Heck we have departments in most of our institutions dedicated to handling complaints
"Why did I not get any chips with my cheeseburger? Where is your manager?? I AM GOING TO SUE THIS PLACE TO THE GROUND!!!" [no teary eyes..just lotsa expletives]

There is something comforting about just being listened to;
whether the person you complain to
can help or not the point, really.


Hence the context of why I find the following to be such a sweet ayat:

"He [Zachariah] said, "My Lord, indeed my bones have weakened, and my head has filled with white, and never have I been in my supplication to You, my Lord, unhappy.""
[Surah Maryam, 19:4]

Through the act of his servant Zachariah, God gives us a tip on how to call to him (du'a):

Plain and simple.

But do it sincerely..from the bottom of your heart.
Of course God knows what you are going through. Duh. He is God kot.
But complain anyways..
and yes, let your eyes tear up ;')

I guarantee it will feel much better than complaining to
mere mortals, or
to Facebook, or
to a (probably hugely ineffective) complaints department.

True peace will come
when you complaint to the One
who can actually do something about it.
He does not tire in listening to you.

So what are you waiting for?
Start now. Complain.
But this time..
do it to the right department ;)